DIARIO del 7 settembre 2020
Salve a tutti, da circa un anno mi si impedisce di postare video su Youtube, per cui mi sono rassegnato a tenere un diario minimo di quello che mi capita durante la giornata. Il diario è necessariamente breve perchè ho difficoltà a dilungarmi a causa deglu ultrasuoni, ma è abbastanza indicativo di quello che di assurdo sono costretto vivere. Assurdo perchè assolutamente criminale e razzista, reati assolutamente intollerabili in una democrazia.
quindi ecco il mio primo giorno del diario che scrissi il 7 settembre 2020. Sfortunatamente lo sto scrivendo in inglese per motivi di studio, fatemi sapere se siete interessati a una versione in italiano.
09/07/'20
Today Ferlini interrupted my meditation, that I had just started the previous day. I already had doubts he was meddling into my quest for peace and mindfulness. I just wanted to find a place where to stay alone with myself and evolve and thrive spiritually. I just started a meditation some years ago, and Ferlini just stopped me right away after less than a week. Today he chocked my attempt just the second day, eventually making me angry.
What do you think about a psychiatrist who despises meditation as something anti-therapeutic? Actually, meditation is something which perfectly matches with psychoanalysis. It is a way to dig deep into one's psychology and spirituality, toward a place of enlightenment and healing. The meditation I was exerting was just one inspired by Dr Brian Weiss (a researcher in psychiatry) who says meditation is a way(probably the way) to healing physically and psychologically, which he has proved through many of his patients and meditating on his own.
But, as I have said multiple times, through my speeches and posts, Ferlini doesn't want to heal me, nor let me find any different way than his, which is to subjugate and to impose his will on me like I was his own slave. Once more I have to underscore I am living a nightmare: officially everyone would agree with me and rank Ferlini as authoritarian, cynic and very racist and unlawful. While behind the scenes everyone agrees with Ferlini as if they were living in a different world, one of the past, where thing aren't such evolved and progressed, and I was just the salve of a doctor the same way it was in the old asylums, where Ferlini learned how to deal with psychiatric patients: a way which nowadays is thought to be very criminal.
So, this is my thought for today, the first day of my diary, which begins with another veto: DO NOT MEDITATE, NEVER! Just don't try to look for a path of healing, there is an only way, the submission to Ferlini's will!