DIARIO del 12 settembre 2020
Salve a tutti, da circa un anno mi si impedisce di postare video su Youtube, per cui mi sono rassegnato a tenere un diario minimo di quello che mi capita durante la giornata. Il diario è necessariamente breve perchè ho difficoltà a dilungarmi a causa degli ultrasuoni, ma è abbastanza indicativo di quello che di assurdo sono costretto vivere. Assurdo perchè assolutamente criminale e razzista, reati assolutamente intollerabili in una democrazia.
quindi ecco il resoconto del diario che scrissi il 12 settembre 2020. Sfortunatamente lo sto scrivendo in inglese per motivi di studio, fatemi sapere se siete interessati a una versione in italiano.
09/12/'20
Hi everyone, today I went to the grocery and there the clerk at the checkout, speaking with one of his colleagues, hinted to the reality show “temptation island”, which is a place where a couple put its management at-risk letting one of the partners courted by another man or woman.
When I hear such type of comments I immediately know they are sending a message to me, they are mocking me. Why? Because I always have fantasies, and long to write about a novel of it, of seeing my girlfriend fucked by another man.
This type of fantasy, as I am concerned, is about frequent in men, and nowadays it is a fashion to exchange partners sexually, not only as a fantasy but instead as a real way of making sex.
Actually, Ferlini mocked me and punished me and obsessed me in such a rude way for years up to the point that I had to stop thinking about any type of sex. Even though he mostly worried and outraged by the fact that I had that type of fantasy. As you know from my posts on Youtube Ferlini controls strictly and permanently my own penis, so that I can't even think about sex without feeling my penis moved and sensitised through ultrasounds as if my penis wasn't mine but that of Ferlini which he uses to mock and humiliate me.
Once more I have to underscore the fact that I am rejected, mocked, punished, obsessed and humiliated for things that are very common, at least in the west and therefore in my country. While all over the world, almost, millions have my same fantasy and in reality shows like this the just experiment their fantasies in the real world. As, even though they say they want the proof their partner is faithful to them, they actually, are excited to see their own partner aroused be another one outside the couple. And there are some of such type of reality shows, where people are excited to see their partner sexually aroused by someone else, and billions who are excited to watch it. The same very people who attend this, are but among those who mock and reject me for the same fantasies they have.
By the way, in the afternoon, when I got to lunch, as I don't eat at lunchtime because of the fact that in the past my two brothers waited for lunch when we joined together to mock me sadistically while I was furthermore annoyed, nervous and angry through ultrasounds. Therefore, after having tried for years to detach me from this torture, I finally manage to isolate and nowadays I eat all alone by myself.
As I was saying, when I got for lunch and was preparing it, my brother coughed gently from the adjacent room, so that I was slightly angry through ultrasounds. In the past, this was commonplace to hear my brother, the early morning or at lunchtime, coughing or clearing his throat loudly, while the telepath administered ultrasounds the way I had to become angry or highly nervous. Many times I was forced to skip breakfast or lunch as I was too angry to eat anything.
This is all for now, see you next time.