DIARIO del 16 settembre 2020
Salve a tutti, da circa un anno mi si impedisce di postare video su Youtube, per cui mi sono rassegnato a tenere un diario minimo di quello che mi capita durante la giornata. Il diario è necessariamente breve perchè ho difficoltà a dilungarmi a causa degli ultrasuoni, ma è abbastanza indicativo di quello che di assurdo sono costretto vivere. Assurdo perchè assolutamente criminale e razzista, reati assolutamente intollerabili in una democrazia.
quindi ecco il resoconto del diario che scrissi il 16 settembre 2020. Sfortunatamente lo sto scrivendo in inglese per motivi di studio, fatemi sapere se siete interessati a una versione in italiano.
09/16/'20
Today wasn't a good day, obsessions were highly annoying. In the morning I was reading Nana by Zola and the telepath began to harass me sexually when I was reading about something slightly erotic in the novel. My penis began to move through the push of ultrasounds and it was about erected for a long time, such that I had to stop reading and not only for the day but forever with that novel. The fact is that when you have your penis moved by another entity and against your nature, you are highly embarrassed and humiliated, and you feel feelings of sadism coming from the telepath who moves the penis and makes other types of connections with you accordingly to what feeling he wants you to feel. That way he can let me know he is highly happy of my discomfort as a sadist should be. I think maybe they want me to burst in anger and get hysteric as a type of realising my supposed repressed anger, relaxing my psychology and thereupon acting more as sound people do. Meaning that sound people are inclined to burst in anger from time to time. Certainly, this was the goal of Ferlini years and decades ago. He just doesn't want to understand I never will give him such a satisfaction, even because I very rarely burst in anger as I prefer a rational solution to things, not an instinctive one. But the genius (Ferlini) says my calm behaviour is not normal, I am repressing anger and I have to release it to heal. This is Ferlini, even after decades of failure provoking such type of reaction on my part, he stubbornly persists in is view I am sick because I am calm and don't react angrily.
In the afternoon I tried to read another book, without anything like eros in it. This time Ferlini, through the telepath, began to tickle my right ear with a sound like a ticking clock, reaching easily the point to stop me reading even the other book. Then after a while, I tried to watch a video, a reportage about far-right populists in Europe, but the ticking started again and at some point, I had to stop watching the video. I then went out and afterwards I was able to read some news without nuisances. But at eight pm, the time I go to bed and usually watch a movie, I had just the time to start watching that the ticking resumed until I stopped watching. There is to say that at some point nervous was added to the ticking, to make me impossible following the movie. I have to underscore the cynism and sadism of these people, who during this report frequently gave a painful box right into my right ear( which lasted some seconds and then followed fixed for many minutes) as a type of underscoring what I was writing that made them happy and satisfied of their work throughout the day.
It is all for today, see you nextly