Lettera a Jeffrey Liberman
Lettera spedita l'8/1/18
Jeffrey Liberman è un famoso Psichiatra e autore di famosi libri di divulgazione della materia
Esteemed Dr. Jeffrey Liberman, first of all, I beg you to excuse me for my bad English as I am still learning it.
My name is Gianpaolo Dattena, I write from Italy and you could already have heard of me. Because I am very famous throughout the world, I am famous as a dangerous psychopath. It happens that I am the guinea pig of an extremely unlawful experiment which is being made to me. Apparently I am free like any other citizen of my country but in reality, I am intensely tested and tormented by ultrasounds and telepathy. My thoughts are spread out throughout the world: politicians, media operators, actors, journalists, very normal people and naturally many, if not all, psychiatrists, know my story and my thoughts and accept to collaborate with the research team sending especial, symbolic and metaphoric messages to me. These messages tend to direct my thoughts in accord to the thoughts of the experimenters, they also are used as a form of punishment interfering heavily with my thoughts and becoming very obsessive, humiliating and very aggressive. At the same time, my mind is manipulated through ultrasounds, which I have experimented to be very powerful: they can trigger any disease and any alteration of the psyche, sparking great anxiety, great anger and every emotion one can feel at its highest levels. This way they(the experimenters) punish me inspiring abnormal thoughts and spreading them also to everyone. They want to force me to follow their directions, which consist in obeying their orders and act as nothing wrong or extraordinary was happening, as if they weren't reading my thoughts, spreading them out, directing and punishing me and manipulating my thoughts and emotions through ultrasounds.
I have been informed about the experiment through the symbolic and metaphoric messages, nobody has ever said me anything directly like it's used among normal people.
What I have understood until now( through the cited messages) is that such experiment was a need for the society to be defended from my dangerous illness. According to the experimenters I am schizophrenic, autistic and affected by a heavy form of compulsion, I would tend also to heavily remove my experiences. They think I had unconscious homosexuality feelings mixed with, also unconscious,paedophile tendency and a terrible need for violence which could trigger up to homicidal raptuses, moreover, according to them, I wasn't able to understand my issues through a legal and normal psychotherapy, instead they had to invent an experiment which could make me aware of my unconscious feelings and this way avoid them to trigger any dangerous action against anybody. This way I have been induced to thoughts of great anger, homosexuality, paedophilia and great form of compulsion to make me aware of it. But even though I am now aware of such feelings (which I should think were in my unconscious and haven't been put into me forcefully......) the experiment cannot stop, they still want me to agree with them, acknowledge my problems and the need for the experiment to exist, and wait for them to stop the trial whenever they want and whether they want.
My life is that of an isolated man with his mind full of obsessions and alterations triggered by telepathy and ultrasounds(some obsessions are from myself, I believe) which affect me like a powerful drug directly connected to my thoughts. I cannot have friends nor a girlfriend, because they would be an extension of the experimenters tending to blow my mind and always denying the existence of the experiment and that they message me in a cryptic way. I already tried to have such type of friends and I felt miserable, humiliated and feeling like suspended in midair without any connection with the real world. The only connection I can have with the real world is to fight against the abusive experiment and regain my life without anybody reading my thoughts and manipulating me through ultrasounds, and certainly, I want the right to speak of what is happening to me. But every time I try to communicate with somebody expressing my thoughts they reject me as a paranoiac full of wrong thoughts, while if I try to connect with anybody you will be sure they already know me and know what messages send to me.
I said maybe you already heard about the experiment, as it is so widespread, but in case you didn't they(the experimenters) will have reached you well before this mail, telling you how to answer to it, generally they suggest not to answer at all, as a message saying you are in accord with them and against my claims.
I write to you because I have recently read your book “Shrinks” and listened to your Ted talk about how to have mental illness without a stigma, and I loved your way to think psychiatry.
Lacking connections which can help me, and always thinking how to stop the experiment I thought maybe Dr. Liberman can help me....... surely he can but maybe he won't, I said to myself, because I wrote to many politicians, journalists and people connected to psychiatric issues, always having no answers, and I have little hope you will.
It seems the entire world is doing something which officially is thought to be very unlawful, harmful, outrageous and anti-democratic, and also against human rights, thinking in my case it is necessary and helpful, although they know the experiment has failed to help me and I am more miserable than ever, living only as a guinea pig for the science's sake.
Do you think this can be an evolution of the psychiatric science? Do you agree with such a cynic, oppressive and making me feel guilty experiment, which also needs to oust me completely from the society I live in?
I cannot watch TV because it is full of messages and when broadcast live, anchormen and anchorwomen interact with me directly connecting to my thoughts. I also avoid many movies for they too are full of messages coming from art directors and actors known worldwide, the same things happen surfing through the internet and, as I already said, I also avoid people.
I surely have mental issues, maybe I am schizophrenic but I haven't ever had acute symptoms(or I didn't see them), it is also possible I have compulsion disorders, even though I think they are not so heavy, and about any form of removing experiences, It is not that I forget completely some of my past experiences, only I don't think much of them. My most important issue is a great difficulty to interact with other people, which I think is called personality disorder.
I would also underscore that I never was dangerous to anyone, nor I tried to seduce children, only psychiatrists think I would be it potentially because of my supposed unconscious issues.
I don't believe I cannot follow a normal psychotherapy which can make me aware of my issues and try to solve them, even though all these years I dug deep within myself and I think to be already aware of my issues ( even though I don't believe they are exactly what the experimenters say, not at all).
I will cite a phrase from your book “Shrinks” which reads: “psychiatry has come a long way since the day of chaining lunatics in cold stone cells and parading them as freakish marvels in front of a gaping public”.........I ask you again whether psychiatry is evolving backwardly treating me as I was an animal without thoughts and rights, good only as a guinea pig for the science's sake.
I would be very glad to have friends and a girlfriend, but the truth is that such experiment prevents me to have any evolution and integration with other people as, according to them, I would have to accept to be one who doesn't deserve the same rights all other people have, and also accept to be dominated by others and invaded like nobody has ever been invaded.
I would like to be respected as a human being living in a democratic country which gives me the same rights all other my countrymen have, and I would like, as the law says, to be free to choose the psychiatrist and the treatment I think is better for me.
I think I am a victim of the stigma to mental illness, a stigma and a prejudice which says a mentally ill person is always dangerous and should be heavily controlled, even though he or she has never committed any crime, and such stigma affects not only average people but also psychiatrists as my case shows clearly.
The head of the trial is Dr. Giorgio Ferlini, an earlier asylum director, I met him as a psychotherapist when asylums didn't exist anymore, in the eighties. I left him when he began to speak in a cryptic way along my then girlfriend and friends, without giving me any explanation of what was happening(the fact that my friends knew what my issues were and what I said during the psychotherapeutic sessions) and the need of a cryptic language, which they denied existed. Since then people speak to me only with such language, wanting me to accept it as, according to them, I am dangerous and incapable of having a normal relationship with anybody, let alone a psychotherapist. With the cryptic messages I was informed (over time) I was telepathically controlled and treated with ultrasounds, along with the fact that the experiment began much time earlier, maybe when I was still a child.
Concluding my letter I hope you will take action against such unlawful treatment which I think is not worthy of a psychiatric science which, as you say in your book, is headed towards great achievements and is far away from its past barbaric treatments. I think the trial should be stopped and also discussed publicly, otherways psychiatry will be the only society's sector which can act against the law, against democracy and against the rights of a person, with the whole society accepting it. I think this would be an awful future not only for psychiatry but also for democracy.
I think to take action against this unlawful trial has become very difficult for everyone, because things are too much widespread and last for many decades. I think the trial hasn't any therapeutic goal anymore( if it has ever had), and it is only a power's affair by now: some psychiatrists(it seems a great amount of them) don't want to lose the power they have acquired to act without rules and directly against the law for scientific achievements, and politicians seem to be ready to allow them to continue that way, even though, until now it seems I am the only accepted, forced human-guinea-pig in the world.
PS. I have a website where I explain more accurately my point of view of the case and the case as I know it, if you want to deepen your notions about that I would be glad of it, sorrily I wrote it in Italian, I haven't translated it yet. You should find a translator since I think you don't speak Italian. Anyway, the link to my website is “caviaumana.it”.
Thanks for your attention
Best regards